feelings (post of utter discontent)

Trouble In MindWhat are feelings. Are they just little annoyances that women have and can't control just to annoy men and the other people that don't agree. Upon a conversation that i had earlier this year i was told that i can control my feelings but i just chose not to. I say to that even if i tell you that i am not mad when i am isn't going to make me not mad. That is stupid. if i feel something then that is what it is whether it be happy, sad, anger, or any other random emotion that i chose to display at that time. And saying otherwise is not going to make me any better or worse and its damn sure not going to make it easier to interact with me. because if i lie to you and say, no i'm not mad, i still am and i am actually holding a grudge against you. and that never ends well. I guess that what i am saying on this little rant of mine is this: if you don't want me to lie to you about anything then why is it ok to hide or lie about my feelings. I am not really happy, and you can't force me. so there. let me know your thoughts if you have any. Love sucks. goodnight